blog mojo gone wild.

as anyone still visiting this place can clearly see, i'm having posting issues. i've always had posting issues, but the posting issues i've had lately are above and beyond my usual posting issues. i have things to write about, but not necessarily the time to write them. and i'm having an extremely hard time finding time to visit and comment on my smallish circle of totally cool fellow blog citizens i've come to know and love.

in addition, i'm suffering some type of weird hormonal surges. i suspect these are related to the birth control system i've been put on, and if they aren't resolved in a few months i may have to re-visit my birth control choice(s).

some days (most days) i'm perfectly normal, fine, and happy. my usual, irreverently flippant, joke-y joke self. and then someone will say something, or something will happen and i will take it personally. to the point i willfully choose to become a hobbit and avoid the internet, email, and my cell phone all together for many days at a time (though people close to me will tell you this cell phone avoidance is a formal trait of my personality, not one that occurs due to irregular hormonal surges).

......i do hate drama. i cannot tell you, whoever you are still visiting this dusty, quiet acre of blogland, how deeply i hate drama, in all its forms. ....unless, of course, it's a piece of cinematic wonder starring gerard butler, and then drama is good. otherwise, drama leaves me feeling annoyed, depressed, questioning the motives of my fellow world citizens, and all around oogy generally speaking. some people take it all in stride and move on quickly, but not me. usually, i end up brooding about it for days or weeks, sometimes months, and feel odd and uncomfortable around those who created it and/or directed it my way.

my friend carol says this is all due to my pisces nature; we absorb energy and all kinds of chi. so only hang out with good chi and positive energy. which seems increasingly hard to do in the year of our lord 2009. did you know?

so i'm going to sit awhile and think about blogging. i am (painfully) aware i announce these hiatuses (hiati?) often, only to return 48 hours later all pithy, with vim and vigor once again, with promises i don't keep. but at the moment, the hormonal surge is quite deafening, and so i actually am going to sit and think awhile about blogging--how i want to handle it, whether i need a better schedule, how to do it while hormonally surging without alienating those who actually know me in real life (and those who don't), and generally where i'm going. in general.

i did find a cute bathing suit for the summer, though, if anyone's interested. it's black with white polka dots and a cute skirt part on the bottom that mostly hides all the hideous side effects that come with childbearing. you can find me in it at a pool somewhere, saying things like, "no, m'am! that sunhat stays on your head, fred. stop pulling it off!" and other silly things. i find i rhyme a lot now, as i speak: "come on, ron!" "let's go, flo" "sit down, brown." if my evil plot works out correctly, in another year or two, i should have a toddler who walks around rhyming whenever she speaks, annoying the holy beejebus out of everyone.

so yes: hormones, drama, and rhyming. not a good combination for blogging, everybody. but i hope each one of you has a fun, happy, fabulous summer.